Shadow Mapping

11:11 Much Anyone????

I have been on a 11:11 roller coaster for weeks now.  Receipts, clocks, gas station pumps, song lengths, time stamps, radio ads, talk shows, you name it, 11:11 is following me.

I’ve been in touch with the 11:11 phenom for decades so it’s not something new, but this has been a bit much. When it shows up in my life, it’s always about being present and paying attention to signs around me. Something wants me to know something. An internal shift needs to occur.

So when my car told me I had a message To: 11 From: 11…. I tuned in deep to my surrounds. Road was fine. No traffic. Nice day. I felt good at the moment, no pending heart attack.  When I pressed Read to hear what 11 had to say, it told me there was no message. There was nothing on my actual phone text either from any 11.

Suddenly, the show I was listening to spoke the words 11:11 too.  Okay, time to listen for real. It was a good show from what I could tell but a lot of it was stuff I had already studied or was implementing.  It was asking us to be who we truly are without ascribing to the familial, cultural, political or religious influences and judgements we are subjected to day in and day out.

Sure. No problem. Be a maverick. Do your own thing.  Think for yourself. Kill your Echo Dot.

But I do this already, so I knew the this 11:11 message had to be further down the rabbit hole.

I found myself asking how true to myself I was actually being, as the speaker had prompted. Which begged the second question, do I know what my truth really is? Has it changed as the years have gone on?

I think most of us are just doing the best we can trying to keep sane in an insane world, pay the bills, keep a roof over our head, and engaging a hobby or two. But truth?  Do we live true?

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It was a Gaia show I was listening to that morning when my own car AI decided to message me 11:11.

As I listened on, the author being interviewed was making the observation that the Positive Thinking/Law of Attraction movement in the past twenty years isn’t working for most people because it doesn’t acknowledge the fundamental principle known as Polarity.

In all things we experience, we succumb to degrees of polarity which has no real cap on either end of it’s spectrum.  For example, where there is light, there is dark. Where there is heat, there is cold. Where there is love, there is hate. These are all just varying degrees of one concept on each line of polarity.  In thinking on what she was saying, which I happened to agree with, I realized this pertains to our human nature as well. It has polarity. We have consciousness. And we have unconsciousness. The unconscious motivations in our personality are known as Shadow.  I will leave you to Freud and Jung to go deeper on the complexities of our Shadow Self.

But as I was driving, thinking on how I do or don’t live my truth, I was thinking on how I had done a lot of Shadow work in my past and shadow mapping as part of that work. Illuminating personal truth by identifying first, personal darkness.

It’s easy to ignore unconscious motives and subsequent actions, until the consequences are biting you in the butt when you operate from them.

This is where positive movement folks get misled.  They might be setting an intention without knowing their own Shadow, which might be acting against that intention for its own directives.

So rather than ignore it, curb it, or contain it, we must face Shadow head on and map it. Define it, know it.  Without this knowledge, anything we set out to do is at risk of failure.

We are all rough diamonds that need a tremendous amount of pressure to reveal our true brilliant nature. The Shadow Self is our diamond cutting tool to work with.

The speaker reiterated things we intuitively know, but the positive thinking movement tends to ignore; there can be no light without dark; No pleasure without pain; No love without hate.  Positive thinking movement tells you to think happy, be happy.


Mapping our Shadow Self helps us integrate our life in a much richer and more truthful way than ignoring it. Or worse, dodging it with positivity statements that someone may not really buy into. Manifestation of one’s truth and desire becomes not only possible but sustainable when we fully open our own personal Pandora’s Box and own what’s inside.

We can’t be afraid of our own Shadow.

I can’t help but think on the parable known as The Tale of Two Wolves.

“A grandfather is talking with his grandson and he says there are two wolves inside of us which are always at war with each other. 

One of them is a good wolf which represents things like kindness, bravery, and love. The other is a bad wolf, which represents things like greed, hatred, and fear.

The grandson stops and thinks about it for a second then he looks up at his grandfather and says, “Grandfather, which one wins?”

The grandfather quietly replies, the one you feed.”

I would have continued this story with consideration of the shadow mapping message I heard that day.

We don’t want to starve the dark wolf.  He/She is a vital part of us.

We can’t ignore the Dark Wolf. If we do, She/He will take over.

We can’t pretend it doesn’t exist.  It will make sure you know it does.

Instead, when it gets hungry, baring its teeth at us, it’s probably best to feed it with compassion and understanding and then take it out to a safe and sacred place to run wild.

And if we have never met our Shadow Self, well, it is time to make an introduction. It’s there. Behind the curtain. You just have to be brave enough to pull the lever. It might take a trick of the light to finally see and embrace your Shadow Self, but it is possible. And I would argue, necessary. Especially if you want to manifest a desire.

Maybe someday scientist can figure out a way to harness our Shadow energy as a renewable energy source.  What a much better use of it than trying to conquer and kill ourselves or each other every day.

Until then, we must personally find a way to honor it, hold it sacred, and harness it’s vital energy for our own creative and passionate outlet. All while we understand that destruction is necessary to foster new life. If we want to live genuine and in our personal truth, this is where we have to start.

Thanks 11:11. Message Received.


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